why?

why has nobody else updated their blog?
why do i keep incessantly checking my email/who's online/who's commented/who's updated their facebook profile?
why has nobody written comments for my blog? (okay, i take some of that back. perhaps the question should be why haven't more people commented on my blog?!?!)

out today from 9.45-11.30am, 12.40-10.30pm. no wonder i'm trying to desparately get some work done now (despite talking about it right now, right here....)

went for dinner with rellies on tuesday night. i ate so well - seafood and nice salad (ie. not the weeds..). got some stuff from the parents that i'd asked to send over, plus you know, a care package type thing. plus extra care package type things from aunt and uncle. awesome to see them in melbourne again! pity they didn't get to drop by queen's again.

piano lesson. almost completely lost it. don't want to end up crying in lesson. feeling quite frustrated and a bit lost, really. this is terrible. but i don't want it to be a shambles, so i'll do it the only way i know how: keep persisting with the work, keep pushing through it all. keep filling myself up with stuff to keep me busy, and to keep working. that's the only i know how to do it, and it has somehow sustained me so far. i don't know how feasible it really is.
did lose it on the phone with mum last night. am not going home for september break. that's ok. will give me a chance to chilax...catch up on piano lessons, work some more (ie. more study), and to perhaps visit some friends round here.

tom's birthday today. happy birthday tom. finally 19 yay!

went to CU public meeting today. it was good. v. interesting. and it's nice to see so many other uni Christians. some from jude's some not, but all is good. and lots of musos, apparently.
hung out in the con for an hour between history and sinfonia. tried to do OB work (isn't working now either..). talked to rob (about cloudstreet, jazz and wyvern, other random qc stuff..). talked to rowan about i don't know what. oh well. tim was being....tim. brass boy. well, they all are... go figure....

had dinner with flick and erica along with lauren tonight. so much fun. ate so well! love the girls :) busy-ness (as opposed to business).
can't make deadlines argh!

friday plan:
sleep a bit...OB lecture....lunch, piano practice, other study, commerce dinner, girl's night.

Saturday plan:
piano landmarks concert with lauren 11am (pre-concert talk at 10.40). will see stefan and stephen (i desparately want to actually meet and introduce myself to stephen). come home. do work/study. Youth alive with lauren, sam and other ppl. (am a bit nervous, don't know what to expect, but am quite excited about it). it is dubbed lauren-saturday.
am unfortunately going to have to miss michael's farewell, probably the ICAC art exhibition (pity, it is usually good), moash uni orchestra at melba hall, treas' birthday bash (my friends are starting to get old, not kidding......def. past the big 2-1. over the hill, i tell you!), the CU ball (pooh...next year, i tell you, next year) and the other landmarks concerts. pooh.

had letter from ex-piano teacher this week. totally cute. totally cool.

sunday: choir.

i think i'm going to fall off my chair. or compeltely lose my head. eyes about to pop out of my head and i am about to slump onto the floor. this is not healthy..............