Saturday, June 10, 2006


Ben, Anne, me (Black Pearl) Posted by Picasa

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Aching

Yearning for so many things...I can't quite put my finger on them all....

*friendships that used to be like the old times
*a standard that is so far beyond me
*so much fulfillment
*the sweet sound of a violin *the relaxation of the holidays
*the work i'm going to fit in during the holidays
*getting back to melbourne (having not even left it yet....)
*seeing so many people
*catching up with people i haven't seen in years.... *sleeping
*acceptance, direction, guidance, love.................isn't that what we all want?
*playing opportunities
*hope that these ventures go well *success for the activities

It all causes that dull ache in the heart. I can't quite place what it is really. I just know it's there, but am at loss for the remedy....

Never really...

I don't really ever get over the people I like. But I get past the liking stage. That's ok. But who I like says a bit about myself. One likes different people for different reasons.

There's always going to be some sort of emotional attachment for me. It's just my thing. Because who I consider my 'friend', I must have some sort of special relationship with. That's how I do it. Because each person is different. And although you treat humanity generally with respect, people differ in so many ways and you kinda have to treat them different, according to the individual.

So, each person I've ever liked will always have something attached to them. Good, bad, just is. That's just how it is. It's almost like a special place in my heart - there's probably a reason why it was there in the first place. Without it being too 'special'. Not to degrade it or anything, but it's a strange thing because it's not like it's an immediate special place like a best friend, but it's because of the emotion attachment. Every moment, from the smile, the banter, the admission and the final realisation, is captured.

Good luck

Courtesy of Mel, Belle and a very cynical Ben..! Hopefully it reaches some people within six minutes or something like that...

This is without a doubt one of the nicest good luck forwards I have received. Hope it works for you -- and me! You have 6 minutes. There's some mighty fine advice in these words, even if you're not superstitious. This has been sent To you for good luck from the Anthony Robbins organization. It has been sent around the world ten times so Far. Do not keep this message.Must leave your hands in 6 MINUTES. Otherwise you will get a very unpleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious, agnostic, or otherwise faith impaired.

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN.. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involves great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.

If Banks Were Musicians, Citigroup Would Be Ozzy: Mark Gilbert


2006-05-11 19:11 (New York)


(Commentary. Mark Gilbert is a Bloomberg News columnist. The opinions expressed are his own.)

By Mark Gilbert
May 12 (Bloomberg) -- Investment banks have personalities that are reflected in how they go about their business and how their peers view them. Bands express their character traits through the music they make and the company they keep. What happens when you match banks with musicians?

1) Goldman Sachs = The Rolling Stones
Goldman Sachs Group Inc. occupies an odd position in the investment-banking pantheon. The world's No. 1 securities firm by market value is unloved by its peers and universally regarded as arrogant. Its prodigious appetite for hard work and its unrivaled profit-generating abilities arouse jealousy and admiration in equal measure.

Goldman could almost be U2. While its followers are devoted, it's still not quite cool to admit to loving the Irish band. The rock 'n' roll establishment struggles to cherish a band whose lead singer, Bono, rubs shoulders with presidents and popes as he campaigns against global poverty.

U2, though, would never embrace Goldman's aim of being "long-term greedy." So, step forward the Rolling Stones; no one ever accused Mick Jagger and Keith Richards of paying anything less than full attention to the bottom line.

2) Citigroup = Ozzy Osbourne
In ``Liar's Poker,'' Michael Lewis wrote that the key to being a successful trader at Salomon Brothers in the 1980s was a willingness to bite the ass off a bear every morning. Ozzy Osbourne would have fitted right in; around the same time he is reputed to have bitten the head off a dead bat thrown on stage after assuming it was a rubber toy.

Salomon is now part of Citigroup Inc.'s empire. Ozzy is now more famous for parading his family on a reality television show broadcast by MTV. Both Citigroup and Ozzy are growing old disgracefully; Citigroup's many and varied brushes with the authorities around the world make the bank worthy of an alliance with the former Black Sabbath singer.

3) Deutsche Bank = Fleetwood Mac
A lazy comparison would equate Deutsche Bank AG, Germany's only global bank, with Kraftwerk, Germany's only global band. Reliant on technology for success, secretive, Teutonic and somewhat emotionless, they have a lot in common. A different list of attributes, though, suggests an alternative. Immensely profitable? Check. Years of infighting and not communicating with one another? Check. Badly in need of a style makeover? Check. It's Fleetwood Mac.

4) JPMorgan = Radiohead
JPMorgan Chase & Co. executives used to boast about the bank's roomful of 250 Ph.D.s, designing exotic derivatives strategies and proprietary mathematical models to tickle the wackier wedges of the world's financial markets for profit. Too clever by half, and needing another big hit to remain relevant?

It could almost be REM. Radiohead edges it.

5) Barclays Capital = Oasis
The capital-markets division of Barclays Plc could be the Red Hot Chili Peppers; chaotic in the 1990s, gained some focus in the early years of this decade, now looking a bit bloated and self-indulgent. Or Barclays Capital could be Keane, since both rose without a trace and are seemingly missing a key component, with Barclays surviving without an equity business and Keane bashing out pop music without the aid of guitars.

Oasis is a better fit. Snarling insolence failed to break the U.S. market and, while past its peak, the band is still capable of flashes of brilliance. Moreover, it probably has twice as many employees as needed. I just can't work out which Gallagher brother, Noel or Liam, is Barclays Plc President Bob Diamond.

6) Morgan Stanley = Coldplay
Deadly earnest. Blue-blooded. Well-heeled. Regularly at the top of the charts, though even fans have the nagging sense they might just be going through the motions. Morgan Stanley and Coldplay are made for each other.

7) Merrill Lynch = Madonna
Both Merrill Lynch & Co. and Madonna peaked in the 1980s and have been irrelevant since the 1990s, notwithstanding umpteen attempts at reinvention. A willingness to jump on any passing bandwagon keeps David Bowie fresh; it leaves both Merrill and Madonna looking a bit like Whitney (Houston) dressed as Britney (Spears).

8) HSBC = any boyband
Guns N' Roses has been poised to release "Chinese Democracy" for a decade. While some tracks have been performed live or been leaked in rough form, the album itself still isn't available. HSBC Holdings Plc has been poised to use its platform in Asian investment banking as the springboard to become a fully fledged global investment bank for at least as long.

HSBC, though, could be any manufactured boyband. The true performers earn peanuts, while the management reaps the financial rewards. And, if there is a genius Robbie Williams lurking in the line-up, there's too much dead wood for the talent to shine through.

9) UBS = Phil Collins
The bank and the former Genesis drummer/singer are both rich, both based in Switzerland, and no one with any sense gives a hoot about either. Medallion men with year-round tans and chunky gold watches bank with UBS AG, and rate ``In the Air Tonight'' as their favorite track of all time.

10) Commerzbank = David Hasselhoff
Both Commerzbank AG and David Hasselhoff, the singing star of Knight Rider and Baywatch, are huge in Germany. Scientists have failed to explain why.

--Editor: Henry.

one down, more to go...

I was all pumped up for yesterday's exam.
After handing in my final Music & Ideas essay (sigh, what a magnum opus that was..! I mean like:
[describing what it was about to my brother]: Oh, I'm looking at the history and the political changes in Bulgaria and how this affected music. Music was recontextualised in two waves over the last one hundred years.
Ernest: ......Woah....this sounds very complex for a second year subject.....
Me: Oh, no, it's a first-year subject!)
Anyway, this listening test...I got so many people to test me, I wrote the notes out again, I listened to the tracks over and over again..

I was so pumped.
And at least the exam justified some of my study. I seriously think I could have written about all ten tracks that we had to learn about. I'm always disappointed with listening tests. Maybe I shouldn't study so much for them so that I'll feel all relieved once they're over.

Had a music lesson on Tuesday. That went well.
My next exam is on Tuesday, my piano technical exam. Eep! Especially when my examiner is the Head of Keyboard...eep! And I don't think my technical work is great....although I want it to be! Well, my teacher thinks I'm going well, so hopefully she's got the right idea..!

So, I'm kinda killing time right now. I'm so bored that I've started studying for my 3rd-week exams already! I have summarised all the notes for Introductory Econometrics as well as Business in the Global Economy. I haven't done questions or fully read the textbook yet though..I shall have to do that. Sometimes I think I have lots of time, but then I think, "Eek! Only one and a half weeks to go! EEEEEKKKK!!!" I'm a bit muddled...!

So, it's feeling pretty cruisy at the moment. Which shouldn't be the case. I have to stress...it's my motivation factor. I'm trying to psyche myself up...it's the way I'll be thoroughly prepared.

However, it's pretty hard, as I try to organise my social life in this period...
I still have to work (need the ca$h.....), I need to have final tutes (make sure I know my stuff..), I need to catch up with some people I haven't seen almost all semester, meetings (business!) regarding (mostly musical) events happening next semester, birthdays to celebrate (lots of them, I'll tell you..! LOTS!!!), friends to see and show around Melbourne, end-of-exams celebration parties to attend (even if I haven't finished exams...), concerts to go to, packing up my room, oh...and did I mention I still have EXAMS...????

Life just doesn't get easier as the semester rolls along...quite the opposite....why now, oh why?!?!

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

flowers

the lillies are blooming. their pink petals opening up to reveal the i-can't-remember-the-scientific-term-for-it-from-year-nine-science. the brown speckles don't even overpower their pink!

they're beautiful! they make my room smell like a florist. i think i could appreciate having fresh flowers every day. if only somebody would buy them for me! then i could justify buying a vase...

Useless tips

Thanks to Rach for this one..! :)

Don't waste money buying expensive binoculars. Simply stand
next to the object you wish to view.

Always poo at work. Not only will you save money on toilet
paper, but you'll also be getting paid for it.

Weight watchers. Avoid that devilish temptation to nibble at
a chocolate bar in the cupboard or fridge by not buying the
f**king thing in the first place, you fat b*stard.

Recreate the fun of a visit to a public swimming pool in
your home by filling the bath with cold water, adding two
bottles of bleach,then urinating into it, before
jumping in.

Anorexics. When your knees become fatter than your legs,
start eating cake again.

An empty aluminium cigar tube filled with angry wasps makes
an inexpensive vibrator.

Olympic athletes. Disguise the fact that you've taken
steroids by running a bit slower.

Smokers. Save on matches and lighters, by simply lighting your
next fag from the butt of your last one.

Vegetarians coming to dinner? Simply serve them a nice bit
of steak or veal. Since they're always going on about how
tofu, Quorn, meat substitute etc 'tastes exactly like the
real thing', they won't know the difference.

Invited by vegetarians for dinner? Point out that since
you'd no doubtbe made aware of their special dietary
requirements, tell them aboutyours, and ask for a
nice steak.

High blood pressure sufferers. Simply cut yourself and
bleed for awhile, thus reducing the pressure in
your veins.

Heavy smokers. Don't throw away those filters from the end
of your cigarettes. Save them up and within a few years
you'll have enough to insulate your roof.

Hyundai drivers. Attach a lighted sparkler to the roof of
your car before starting a long journey. You drive the
things like dodgems anyway, so it may as well look
like one.

A mouse trap placed on top on of your alarm clock will
prevent you from rolling over and going back to sleep.

Girls. Don't worry about a nice dress for that important
first date. All he's interested in is seeing you naked.

Putting just the right amount of gin in your goldfish bowl
makes the fishes' eyes bulge and cause them to swim in an
amusing manner.

Monday, June 05, 2006

who knew?

RE: weddings.

1) I can't eat at my own wedding. Apparently I'll be too busy saying hi, taking photos and making small talk. Pooh, I love eating! Especially if I've chosen the food!
2) I get two rings. The guy only gets one. Hah, I win! hahaha. moving on....

I haven't thought too much..!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

Friendship

I know I've put this one up before, but I really like it, so here it is again, courtesy of Belle.

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty.
He said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her
forever...and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry,
and once again he replied with a no.

She had heard enough. As she walked away, tears streaming
down her
face the boy grabbed her arm and said...

You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be
with you forever.
And I wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die...

SO NOW I WILL SAY:
I like you because of who you are to me...A true friend.
And if I don't get this back I'll take the hint.
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize
they like you.
Something good will happen to you at 1:00-4:00 PM
tomorrow. It could be anywhere -- AOL, Yahoo, outside
of school, anywhere.
Get ready for the biggest shock of your life.
Please send to 15 people in 15 minutes.
Remember:
"A good friend will come bail you out of jail...."
But a true friend will be sitting next to you saying ..
"WE screwed up!"
Proud to be your Friend!
Make sure you read all the way down to the
last sentence, and don't skip ahead.

I've learned...that life is like a roll of toilet paper.
The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.

I've learned...that we should be glad God doesn't give
us everything we ask for.

I've learned...that money doesn't buy class.

I've learned...that it's those small daily happenings
that make life so spectacular.

I've learned...that under everyone's hard shell is
someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.

I've learned...that the Lord didn't do it all
in one day.
What makes me think I can?

I've learned...that to ignore the facts does not change
the facts.

I've learned.

I've learned...that the less time I have to work, the
more things I get done.

To all of you...make sure you read all the way down to
the last sentence.
It's National Friendship Week.
Show your friends how much you care.
Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND, even if it
means sending
it back to the person who sent it to you.
If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a
circle of friends.
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP WEEK TO YOU!!!!!!
YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I am honored

Saturday, June 03, 2006

a note

a stack of photos follow. Because i've just realised that i haven't put these up! So, sorry. And thank you to everybody who i've pinched these photos from.
if you have photos from these events, please email them to me! I'm always willing to receive them!

So, in order:
Photos from the Revue (19 & 21 May)
Fellows Dinner (17 May)
Rowing Day (14 May)

Enjoy :)

me - piano. :) Posted by Picasa

Jacquie & Me: Cityscape Posted by Picasa

Sze: The Peacock Dance Posted by Picasa

Sweet Violets Posted by Picasa

Ben 'Deep Ocean' Strate, Bruce (Proxy) 'The Chest' Hardy Posted by Picasa

Fabulous Queen Benny & the Divine Velvet Jets Posted by Picasa

Revue: Jonty & Pete Posted by Picasa

Revue: Ben & Treas Posted by Picasa

Revue: jacquie & me Posted by Picasa

The musos: Anne, me, Jacquie Posted by Picasa

receiving Wyvern medal from Dr John Henley, 6th master of Queen's College Posted by Picasa

in the JCR: me, xing, mel, renee Posted by Picasa

a mother and her daughters: me, xing, mel Posted by Picasa

me & mel (under the safety of an umbrella!) Posted by Picasa

mel & a very attractive look from pete.... Posted by Picasa

bambi & me Posted by Picasa

me, alex, min (& goat) Posted by Picasa

jess, candace, me, sally-anne Posted by Picasa

The goat on our cool banner - it goes with us everywhere now! Posted by Picasa

Watermelon heads!!! Posted by Picasa

Jey Han & CY Posted by Picasa

me & jess Posted by Picasa

Queen's crew Posted by Picasa

Steph & me Posted by Picasa

Thursday, June 01, 2006

The Mayonnaise Jar

From Xing...

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar... and the coffee...

A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous "yes."

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

"Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognise that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things. Your family, your children, your faith, your health, your friends,
and your favourite passions. Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter. Your job, your house, and your car. The sand is everything else. The small stuff. If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued, "there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. Take care of the golf balls first, the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."

stuff

Semester teaching ended. Argh!!
Did 20:20. The photos are up on the web...if you want to see my average day, go to the Clickstreams (all Wyverns, you can still log in). If you want to see it, ask me for the link.

The two tutes went by quite uneventfully. Except for a number of magic tricks involving cards and strange looks of disbelief on my face! Pretty darn cool....maybe I should get into it through one of the clubs on campus.

Thursday was fantastic - two lectures cancelled (well, not that that's the main point, but you know, it gave me more time and that!). After Concert Class, the MSS held a pizza lunch informal function. It was heaps of fun, with the music and pizza going down HOT! Yes, I met somebody new. Which was fun. And yes, I was asked "Do you know the merengue?" Heck yes!! I didn't go to dance class for nothing. Haha. Anyway, the merengue didn't go quite as well as I'd learnt but it was still fun. The band was AWESOME (thanks to Dave!) and it was lots of fun. Went to Sinfonia that afternoon/evening. That was fun too :) Hah. But playing 2nd violin in the 'inside circle'...scary or what?!?! I don't think I'm cut out for it, but what the heck, it was fun!

Played background music for Rowing Dinner pre-drinks on Friday night before scooting off to Connect. Was awesome to hang out and eat pizza :) Had a good chat to a number of people..it's nice being able to meet a wide range of people at stuff...although inevitably with me, lots of it revolves around music...! :) Oh well. I unfortunately missed the Early Music concert, in which four friends were performing. You just can't win can you? The photos look beautiful though! I wish I was there!! Maybe I shall have to take one of those ensembles sometime....

Saturday morning had the Ravel G Major piano concerto in 'Keys to Music'. It was FANTSATIC to hear that piece again, and deconstructed, then put together again! :) Just lovely. :D :D

Went shopping Sunday morning, in attempt to buy shoes....that clearly failed, although I picked up Mendelssohn's "Leider ohne Worte" for piano for less than $20 at the Allan's sale. Fantastic :) Then there was a live broadcast at 3pm on ABC radio from the Iwaki Auditorium from the Arts Centre in Melbourne, where Helen, Anna, Josie & Craig Hill played Messian's "Quartet for the End of Time". Just amazing....it was beautiful. It was also nice to actually know and have met the people that played (apart from the clarinettist. Oh well...The rest, I have. :) )

Monday night we went to Manchester Lane at night to see the Faculty of Music Big Band & SuperSax play the end-of-semester concert. No cover charge, a chance to hear some awesome music, support fellow musicians and to hang out....and be seen by the Con :) Hehe. :P I did see people I knew, which was awesome!

And in the days from Friday-Tuesday (night), I managed to write a 2000-word essay titled 'Assimilation and re-contextualisation: History and politics in the music of Bulgaria'. I even got involved and started listening to Bulgarian pop over the internet. It was FANTASTIC! I think I'm really getting into this musicology and research thing, even so far as to say I'm into the Ethnomusicology thing!!!! :) :) Hehe.
Had an MSS meeting on Tuesday that went for too long. But we have the music ball underway...

24TH AUGUST. Be there. Coz it will be FANTASTIC!!!!!

Had a piano lesson yesterday which went quite well. I just have lots of practice to do. Not that it should surprise me, or anybody. But that's not the point.

Right, back to the study, a bit more before I have to head to meet somebody. Lots of stuff has happened. Perhaps now is not the time to list them all....but there have been some good, some bad, some BLAH. whatever.

peace out. Or however they say it....